Hatred

Hatred is the most alone feeling; it tears itself away from everything including those who indulge it. Red hot hatred that stirs at any provocation can do nothing but sear the bearer of its rage; it has taken from those who possess it any sense of decency, because with it comes a sense of meaninglessness. This, of course, is a paradox, because hatred flaunts itself as some overwhelming cause when in reality it is as empty and dangerous as a broken glass--unable to hold any other emotion and ready to cut any who dare touch.

Hatred is very much like being buried alive. So alone, so all alone, and so captive to fear. No one to hear you scream, but you must. You must cry to the ears that won't hear, and you must calm the heart by your tears. But hatred is so much more dangerous than even this, because a man buried alive can only be alone and afraid; but a man with hate can harm. In his lonely fear he can fling words and actions that can pierce the soul of another--pierce them so that they too become infected with the infection that rots from withing--hatred.

  • posted on 23 October 2001
  • by Jesse

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8 July 20071. SULLY:

Hi what if your the cause of the hatred and trying to deal with that person who is the wife of your 3 beautiful children and what caused it was a cry for attention and she see's it for betrayel! She knows I love her dearly and I'm hanging on to fix the problems we have and it hard! I have admitted my wrongs and can't let go because I'm such a good father and realize my true feelings for her. Because of her stuffing feelings or not dealing with are problems completely over the 10 yrs. we've been together , it's hard for her to beable to trust me and even look at me and were still under the same roof! I come from a family where there was little saying I love you or affection and I find it hard to show my true feelings until my back is against the wall! I'm a recovering alcoholic and drug addict but have been clean for 2 yrs and now struggling with my Sobriety! I don't know what to do because my safe haven was her with my family and now I've screw'd it up with and emotional affair VIA email! I'm wrong in dealing with the way I've dealt with my feelings I 've admitted that but I don't know how to help my family! Nothing else matters!!!!!!


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