Thoughts on life, love and faith by Plasticmind.

Well, my dad put in his resignation tonight; he'll be leaving the pastorate at Truth Baptist Church in thirty days.

I'm not really sure how to take this all. I've been telling him for a while that he should leave. Things had gone stale after a few years ago when we lost a huge number of people (all for fine and decent reasons) that were core members. But when he stood up in our business meeting tonight, I had definite mixed emotions.

I mean, lets get practical. Where do I go to church this Wednesday night? If I stay I would most likely end up taking on many of his responsibilities... becoming a stand in pastor as it were. And I'm not really ready for that. And I would also feel mixed loyalties, going to the church that my dad is leaving. Then people are trying to talk to me about him, or worst case scenario avoid me because I'm just a reminder to them of all he was (and was not?) But at the same time, I do lead singing and teach Sunday school - those would be needs if I left.

So I'm struggling and praying right now. For him and for myself, for direction. I'm not really sure where to go or what to do. Hopefully a fresh day and a rested mind will help.