Thoughts on life, love and faith by Plasticmind.

The words were on the tip of my tongue
But I was afraid to ask it;
And now that I have the courage to speak,
I’m looking into a casket.
I ran and I hid—but the truth sought me out,
And it tore back the skin to reveal all my doubt
Of the one thing he truly would need.
I loved him but never in deed.

Why must you leave me now?
I never said the words you needed most.
Why was I so afraid?
The fear inside is never worth the cost.
And if I could take back one word,
It would be the word unspoken.

I have no fear, or so I proclaimed,
But deep down inside I was fumbling.
I spoke of the world and the news of the day,
Yet the cross earned him nothing but mumbling.
I cursed and I swore when I mentioned God’s name
And it brought me to tears at the lie I became
When I did not speak Jesus to you,
When I did not speak Jesus to you.

How could I let all this fear seal your fate?
Why was I silent until it’s too late?
Why did I not speak the words that you needed?
Why did I leave my duty unheeded?
Where was the love I professed all these years?
All that I own now is regret and tears.
God for the shame of this selfish concealing,
All it would take was a simple revealing
Of the truth that I claim to believe,
Oh what do I truly believe?

Why must you leave me now?
I never said the words you needed most.
Why was I so afraid?
The fear inside is never worth the cost.
And if I could take back one word,
It would be the word unspoken.